camp is so soon!

megs and i have to finish prepping for our "Monday Night Madness" event --

and I have to prepare my class I'm teaching.

I worked on it tonight.

I'm so tired.

I am indebted to Christ.

full up?

you know i adore people.

but right now linds has a group of friends upstairs and i don't even want to introduce myself. doesn't that seem weird?

it's like ... i can only be close to so many people.


i am not putting this into words very well.



in the past, when i've met someone i truly liked, i've prayed that God would expand my heart to create room for that person.

do you think that's valid?

almost the (long) weekend

but not quite.




i love my youth group kiddos. love.

i love my roomies.

i love my fam.

i love my God.

i love my eir, my whit, my ash, my cindy, my megs, my trace, my biz.

i love my babies (cough, tracy's and becky's babies, TECHNICALLY).

i love my job.

i love my life.

i love my bed. goodnight.

selfish

i hate how un-Christlike i can be at the drop of a hat.

what a story

toilet plugged up ... bad.

4 roommates embarrassed to call their landlord.

experiments with an ace hardware "snake."

lots of clean up required.

right now

i feel like i am such an awful writer.

i tried to work on my poems this weekend, and i think i got some things accomplished, but sometimes i feel like i'm just working on the basic, elementary principles of writing.

i don't want to write like a college freshman; i want to write like a woman who has a bachelor's degree in writing.

sigh.

it's frustrating. maybe it's hard for you to enter into my frustration. some fields just have answers. English has DRAFTS. you keep working something til you think it's as right as it can be. very different than solving a math problem, eh?

anyway. nevermind. i'm just ranting.

love you!

productive day!

got up, went jogging (my deal with myself is that if i can jog 4x per week for 4 weeks in a row, i can buy an iPod) ...

ran errands

read outside for a long while, and talked to megs on the phone, planning activities for camp next month

tricia made french toast for dinner

watched a movie

now i'm going to work on my poems for awhile

LOVE!

question

can anyone see the pictures i've put above?

if not, maybe i did it wrong and i should just take 'em down.



my life is great. des moves in TOMORROW (basically).

i am only working a half-day tomorrow then going to stillwater with eir, whit, and whomps. then i'm gonna help des move her stuff in.

hooray!

Today

Kristin and I drive by a Caribou Coffee after church.

Kristin: Why does Caribou have a deer as its symbol?
Jackie: Uh ... it's a caribou ...
Kristin: That's a real animal?!




Today was great. Kristin and I went to Kimball and we tricked her into thinking Kevy couldn't come home for Mother's Day. We actually went out to dinner and were seated and stuff and there for awhile before Kev came strolling in. It was great.

I love my fam.

Love,
jackie lea

sista sista

kristin's staying at my house tonight. :-)

so many things

i love my youth group peeps.

i love my church.

i love my friends and my family.

i love my house.

i love my GOD.

i love my bed.

i love my roommates.

i love my life.

i love my mom.

i love my room.

i love my compassion peeps.

i love my camp.

i love my campers.

i love my job.

i love my opportunities.

i love you.

if you read this blog ...

i dare you to post a comment.

learning ...

i am learning to trust in my Father instead of worrying. i'll share with you a part of my conversation with Him last night ...

"help me to TRUST! help me to recall all the ways You've been with Your people, the ways You've rescued them and me, the miracles You set in motion and completed, the faithfulness -- EXTREME faithfulness -- You've always shown me. i am 25 years old, and You have SAVED me. i am Your daughter. You LOVE me. You have given me a loving relationship with You -- THANK YOU FOREVER. for Who You Are, I owe You praise! for Your salvation, i bow in humble gratitude, for Your rich blessings, i am speechless with thanks."

...

"all of this should combine into one huge pocket of trust in You. and i DO trust You, i DO. sometimes i think maybe my immediate desires get in the way of my trust ... "

...

"if [it cannot happen], let me trust You have other ideas, other times, other things in mind, and let my praise NOT SKIP A BEAT.

"for You are GOOD, and Your love for me is GREAT; Your power is mighty, and Your plan is perfect.

"so i want to praise, regardless of circumstances."


friends, if i am in your prayers, this is what i ask you to pray for: that I would TRUST my Savior.

love,
jackie lea

good, full weekend

but boy am i whomped now!

mmmm ... bedtime!

thank You, Jesus, for this sweet life You've granted me, the saving relationship You initiated with me, and the family and friends You've graced my path with.

my weekend alone

... has not actually been alone. :-)

tricia is in chicago, and lindsey is at the international house of prayer, and des has not moved in yet, so this weekend i was supposed to be alone.

which is very weird after living in a house with 7 other ladies.

let's see ...

last night, i went home, made myself dinner, organized my room, and read my book. then i got sick of being alone, so i asked whitney to come over. she did. then we went to meet tim and ash at perkins, but they got lost and we never saw them.

then today, i made lunch, and it was all gloomy and rainy, so i read my book out in the livingroom with a blanket, and then i got bored. i went shopping and bought my dress for cindy's reception, and now i am over at whitney's, blogging and watching High School Musical.

again.

hahahahaha.

tomorrow, church, then lunch with brookie, then heebers' bridal shower.

so i guess i wasn't alone as much as i had guessed. :-)

i love my life.

thank You, Jesus, for Your outstanding blessings, Your rich, rich gifts.

The Shanty ... remember, we're still moving in!

i'm still alive!

... just still busy unpacking!

LOVE the new place!

des is moving in THIS month now! hooray!!!!

i'll post pics of the house soon (once it's a little cleaner and more organized!)

how are YOU, blog world?
love,
jackie lea