you know i adore people.
but right now linds has a group of friends upstairs and i don't even want to introduce myself. doesn't that seem weird?
it's like ... i can only be close to so many people.
i am not putting this into words very well.
in the past, when i've met someone i truly liked, i've prayed that God would expand my heart to create room for that person.
do you think that's valid?
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yeah, that makes sense to me - I'm the same way in most instances. I'd much rather go deeply with only a few people than shallow with many people.
- Peter
Javerly, I can completely relate to this. I adore people as well; only when I'm around them, my mind freezes up and I can't get words out, or I can't reach out, or I can't say the things that I want to or think that I should say. It's so frustrating. Is there a diagnosis for this? And even though I adore people, the more I'm around people the more tired I get.
In other news, I just finished downloading all your blog posts into Google Reader, and read each one. Good stuff. Lots of pics of The Shanty. Very exciting and cool! Can't wait to see it!
It's funny because I was thinking about this same idea earlier today...that there are people in my life that I wish I was closer to, and how can I think about getting even a little closer to anyone else? Do we eventually have to cut someone out to make room for someone else? I don't like that, but I feel sometimes that I'm doing it now and that makes me sad.
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